forget your perfect offering / there is a crack in everything / that’s how the light gets in – Florida Keys and beyond
What follows was written yesterday and last night, down to the part where I mention Tim Tebow coming to me in a dream at dawn today and saying he is backing all causes. On waking from the dream, I felt I understood why the charter high school principal in Key West killed herself. I took the dream to mean today’s post would be rough and tumble, like Tim plays football. And it would include Jesus Christ, who played some pretty rough and tumble football himself.
My first Bashinsky cousin Leo replied to yesterday’s Alien Nation New Year prospects – America, humanity post:
Bash-Wishing you a Happy New Year.
“Forget your perfect offering / There is a crack in everything / That’s how the light gets in.”
Sandy Downs burned three Leonard Cohen disks for me and I used to listen to them whenever I was in my car for maybe a year. Cohen went to the grist of life in his songs, didn’t seem to hold anything back. A tough act to follow. Wonder what it would be like today if episodes from Jesus’ life had been viedo-taped and put on YouTube without editing?
[My recollection of the Gospels, a Jew told his disciples to be perfect even as their Father in heaven was perfect.]
Text of an email last night to Deer Ed of www.bigpinekey.com’s Coconut Telegraph:
Ed stripped my humanity from the Vaseline-iodine MRSA home remedy report, which I submitted at the request of one of his readers. Ed also cut the P.S. entirely and stripped the spirit element out of the remedy. He robbed his readers. When a shaman is put through hell to provide a remedy for a condition in his tribe, they take the whole remedy if they want it to work. You can see what I sent to Ed yesterday, by clicking on this link:Alien Nation New Year prospects – America, humanity and scrolling down to the Staph/MRSA home remedy part of that post. You can see what Deer Ed gave to you by going to back to yesterday’s CT and scrolling down to the Staph/MRSA home remedy report. Ed told you about this time last year that he wished he had more writers like From the Right and me, but he didn’t see that happening. Maybe Ed will be happy with just FTR, whose medical difficulties you have been reading about on the CT are directly the result of his making far too many right turns. Right is male, left is female. Ciaosky
Erika Biddle sent yesterday:
Sending you an angel image we discovered on the wall of the Palacio de la Inquisicion in Cartagena, Columbia. Something to dream about? XOE
Yum. Imagine something like that in America, even on Duval Street, for all the world to see. The Puritans would go berserk. Maybe ze beaucoup beaux Angelena will send me a milk maid look-alike, with lots of digitalis to keep my 70-year-old ticker ticking.
underneath the Angel image was written: “An angel is a being who has been bequeathed to us by religion as a symbol of evil and goodness, and from the same origin we have been convinced that we can resenting wickedness by excellence. Images that have penetrated, that even cartoons use them as symbols of duality between good and evil, innocence and sin, the diatribe that has ruled since we can remember. Judgements that have sparked hundreds of convictions in Cartagena de Indias for heretics and sorcerers since 1610 under the so called Holy Office in the Palace of the Inquisition…”
The instruments of torture used were so cruel and horrible I could barely look at them…and I only can nod at the statement “God gave us spirituality and the Devil saw it and said: wow – cool let’s get this organized and call it religion” lol
Angels were “bequeathed” to us by God, even as God bequeathed us to the angels and the rest of the creation. What religion and humanity did with it is another matter altogether. Of course, the photo is not what angels look like, unless they choose to look that way for a situation. Humanity creates angels in its own likeness, just like it creates God in its own likeness. Makes it easier to cope with the unknowable and unfathomable. It’s also a tad out of touch with reality.
The shaman Jesus went through hell to provide a remedy for humanity, who then stripped the remedy of Jesus’ humanity and his spirit, and what was left did not work and, in fact, made things worse than before Jesus provided the remedy. The Devil loves religion, always has. Right, God goes along with it; otherwise, how would human beings ever have a chance to figure out the difference?
I wondered if, when, I would get drawn into into the suicide of the principal of the charter high school in Key West. The wondering ceased when I received a phone call about 11:30 last night from Sandy Downs, whose son Marshall attends that school. Sandy lives son Cudjoe Key and she drives or has someone else drive Marshall to and from that school each day.
Sandy said she felt Adri Stewart had something terrible happen to her when she was a child and it overtook her. That, and Adri was a super-achiever and was unable to show weakness and compensated by being strong outwardly until she ran out of steam and exploded. I said I was not convinced it was any of that, maybe it was, maybe not. I said I wondered if something happened recently, which we don’t know about, which drove Adri to kill herself. I said the angels might tell me now that I was drawn into it.
All along, the ringer in it for me was Adri was into shooting guns. She shot herself at a gun range above Miami, with a rented pistol. She was from up that way, had family up there. I wondered what would cause a 30-year-old woman with a stellar career, three children she loved, ages 1-13, the youngest adopted, who loved children and was the beloved role model for an entire high school to get a thrill out of shooting guns? That simply did not compute for me.
Meanwhile, Sandy told me a story last night, which I will summarize after providing The Key West Citizen’s version published this past Monday:
Students praise principal at service
BY GWEN FILOSA
The Key West principal who committed suicide four days ago left her students with more questions than answers over her seemingly abrupt decision to leave this world by turning a rented handgun on herself at a public gun range in Broward County. “I just wish I could tell her that I love her so much,” said Naylen Gonzalez, 15, at a memorial service Sunday in Key West that students organized at a New Town church. Through music, photographs and personal tributes, students at Key West Collegiate Academy said they wanted to celebrate the life of Adri Stewart, 30, who killed herself Dec. 26. Stewart, who started as principal in August, was the last person her students would believe was suicidal. Sunday’s service, quiet and dignified, still showed the raw shock that accompanied news of the woman’s death in the Florida Keys. “I just can’t imagine that she is not here right now,” said Robert Tallmadge, 16. “And I just wish I could have said, ‘thank you,’ before she passed away.” Students remembered a strong, confident leader who always had time to talk and worked long hours on developing new education strategies. And they remembered last seeing her — at the school’s Christmas party held the day before winter break began — smiling and expressing excitement about going home to see her family near Miami. The service drew School Board members Andy Griffiths and Robin Smith-Martin; State Board of Education member John Padget; Superintendent Mark Porter and administrator Christina McPherson. But the officials let the students, parents and charter school leaders speak and simply listened. Classes resume Jan. 7 in Monroe County, and that includes the charter high school, Porter said Friday. Several students took to the podium at the Impact Community Church on 5th Street to thank Stewart for her help in getting them on track academically. Stewart was a single mother of three and the newly hired principal who parents and students believed would become the saving grace of the fledgling two-year old charter high school. Before 2 p.m. Wednesday, Stewart killed herself with a handgun blast at a Pembroke Park gun range, where rentals start at $20. She left a note for her family that confirmed it was a suicide, the Broward County Sheriff’s Office said. Stewart last fall became the fourth principal to lead the school that had endured growing pains that included two principal resignations its first year. Vivacious and confident in the public eye, Stewart was an instant hero to many of the students. In her short life, she had already been a teacher, guidance counselor, sports coach and principal. “She turned this school around,” said Andie Rose Roberts, who said Stewart was the best principal to run the charter school and an excellent Spanish teacher. “She was interactive and we didn’t just learn from the textbook.” Roberts recalled meeting Stewart at the school. Stewart complimented the scarf that the Big Pine Key teen wore. “She said to me, ‘I have this idea. I want people to put scarves on my casket,’” a tearful Roberts said Sunday. “I wasn’t expecting to give it to her so soon. I gave it to her daughter.” Kirsten Hoskins, 16, a junior at the school, rose to tell the crowd of about 50 people that she planned on graduating early. “I don’t think that would be possible without her help,” Hoskins said of Stewart. “She wanted us to become a family,” said Damian Jones, 15, who wore a striped necktie and a composed gaze to the service. “She considered us as her second family.” A few speakers openly struggled over finding a reason behind her suicide.” “It certainly had nothing to do with all of you,” said Todd German, chairman of the school’s board of directors and a friend to Stewart. “She doted on you.” Key West Collegiate Academy will continue, said German, who helped bring in the Academica nonprofit charter school management company last year as the school hired an interim principal after forcing out the last two. “The school will go on and, in some strange way, it may be stronger than ever,” said German. “I challenge all of you to keep Adri in your heart.” Gonzalez, who dedicated a dance she performed Sunday to Stewart, said after the service, “We’re never going to forget her.”
Sandy told me that Marshall organized and orchestrated the memorial service.
She said it began with a phone call from Todd German the day after Christmas, to tell her what had happened. Todd was calling all the parents who had students in the school. Sandy burst into tears. She told Marshall and he was devastated. Marshall checked his cell phone and saw a message saying some of the students were at the community college, where the charter high school is located.
Sandy said she drove Marshall to the community college, while calling Pastor Ernie De Loach to see if he could come directly the college. He could not. So Sandy called Pastor Tim (I forgot his last name) at Impact Community Church, which Marshall also attended, and Pastor Tim said he could come to the college. That led to Tim offering to have the memorial service at his church. A charter high school teacher or administrator at the charter high school (another name I forgot) said permission would have to be gotten from higher up. Sandy and Marshall said the service would be held regardless of higher up.
Sandy said Marshall got friends in a band in which he plays to come to the service and play and sing. Marshall led the service. He invited students who wanted to be prayed for to come down to the altar, and about ten students did, and were prayed for. A woman of about 50 came over to Sandy, weeping; she told Sandy there was something very special about Marshall.
Sandy said Marshall was interviewed by Gwen Filosa at the memorial service.
Tom Tuell, Editor of The Citizen, told me in an email in 2008, as I recall, that Sandy was a habitual liar and was insane as the result of the death of her son Preston. Sandy asked me to ask Tom if he was a habitual liar and was insane as the result of his having run over and killed a homeless woman on her bicycle on Big Coppit Key? After receiving Sandy’s question from me, all of which conversation I published to my websites, Tom wrote me back that I should never contact him again. I published that, too.
Did that have anything to do with Gwen Filosa not mentioning Marshall in her article?
I did not know about the service and was not there. I leave for people who attended, who know me — Todd German, Andy Griffiths, Robin Smith-Martin, John Padget, Mark Porter, Christina McPherson and Gwen Filosa — to tell me Marshall did not lead that service, and his band did not play and sing for it, and the prayer call to the altar Marshall made did not happen, and the School District “let” the students, parents and charter school leaders speak. As Sandy told it, the School District had nothing to do with the service.
I know Marshall pretty well. He is cut from a different cloth. It sounded like something he would do.
Sandy also told me last night that she knew from personal conversations with Adri Stewart that she hated the FCAT, and from personal conversations with various students that Adri had inspired them to be all they could be, to excell, and they were doing better in school because of her, and they loved her for it.
I said the students should be allowed to see what is in the suicide note. And, I said, whenever the angels drag me into something, I write about the spiders and snakes, as well as give credit where it is due. It might be that I will come up with a reason for the suicide, which nobody wants to hear. Sandy said she knew that.
Sandy then said she had lost interest in doing battle with Key West and its Tree Commission. What had cause her to lose interest, she said, is the city is having the city’s trees cut back from power lines throughout the city. That was what she had wanted them to do all along. Power Lines in city trees had killed her son Preston.
I had told Sandy that at the bottom of her battle with Key West and its Tree Commission was Preston’s death. She had said that probably was why she could not let the battle go.
As for Adri Stewart, here’s what came to me after Tim Tebow came to me in the dream at grey light this morning and said he is backing all causes.
What happened to the Sandy Hook School students and teachers and staff ripped Adri’s soul to shreds. A gun nut, Adri saw herself in the shooter’s mother who had provided the guns her son used to do the slaughter. It blew Adri up inside, there was no fixing it. She shot herself.
Sandy Hook massacre, Sandy Downs dragged me into Adri Stewart’s suicide, I cannot ignore that. Nor can I ignore that when I told Sandy last night that my cousin Leo had sent me, “Forget your perfect offering / There is a crack in everything / That’s how the light gets in,” Sandy said she had read that in my post yesterday morning. I said I had not published it yet. She said she had read it in something I had published. I said I had not published it yet. She said maybe she was psychic and read it before I wrote it.
Marshall is cut from a different cloth. The School District, its principals, teachers, staff and students, and the Keys community and America could learn a lot from a young Jesus-trained shaman who has only just begun.
I wrote in yesterday’s post of dreaming that Key West lawyers I knew pretty well were wanting me to get involved in something they were involved in down there. I figured it was a spirit thing. I did not know it was about Adri Stewart’s suicide until just now. It might be about more than that, too. One step at a time, right Jesus-trained shaman Tim?